The Stillness: August 2011

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Fun survey from http://heckyeahtumblrchallenges.tumblr.com/archive , with a few extra comments:

Reblog and bold what applies to you.
I’m loud.

I’m sarcastic.

I cry easily.

I have a bad temper.

I’m easy to get along with.

I have more enemies than friends.

I’ve smoked

I drink coffee.

I clean my room daily.

My appearance:
I wear make-up.

I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.

I wear contacts.

I wear glasses.

I have braces.

I change my hair color often.

I have a piercing.

I have small feet.

Relationships:
I’m in a relationship now.

I’m single.

I’m crushin’. (I think.)

I’ve missed an ex before.

I’m always scared of being hurt (yes, but far more scared of hurting others, a crime I can't let go of...through guilt I hurt myself more than anyone ever can)

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

I’ve been in love more than two times.

I believe in love at first sight.

Friendships:
I have a best friend.

I have at least ten REAL friends.

I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.

I’ve beaten up a friend.

I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.

I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:
I’ve been on a plane.

I’ve taken a taxi.

I’ve taken a city bus.

I’ve taken a school bus.

I’ve made a speech.

I’ve been in some sort of club.

Music:
I listen to R&B.

I listen to pop.

I listen to techno.

I listen to rock.

I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I ~~hate it~~ get very tired of it.

I download music.

I buy CD’s.

Family Life:
I get along with both of my parents for the most part.

My biological parents are still together.

I have at least one brother.

I’ve been kicked out of the house.

I’ve sworn at my parents.

I’ve made my parents cry.

I’ve lied to my parents.

I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.

I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.

Hair:
I’ve had streaks.

I’ve cut my hair in the past year.

I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.

I’ve been blonde.

I’ve had black.

I’ve been red.

I use conditioner.

I’ve curled my hair.

I’ve straightened my hair.

30-Day Letter Challenge, Day 8

Day 8: Your Favorite Internet Friend

Dear A,

I can’t really say you’re my favorite internet friend. I haven’t spoken to you in two years, and even then I wouldn’t have considered us close. But you niggle at me, still.

I wish I had the courage to tell you that I still think of you. I still worry about you. I still feel bad about letting myself fade out of your life without a real goodbye. I wasn’t a good friend to you, I know. And I made a promise I so badly wanted to keep but knew perfectly well I never could. I wonder if you hate me. I was so confused—felt so guilty—didn’t know what to say to you—thought it would be better if you forgot about me—and probably really hurt you. I told myself it was kinder, but it was the coward’s way out. I was seventeen and stupid, and I’m so sorry.

And I hope, I hope, I hope you’re all right. There was so much darkness in your life.

Please be happy.

Your friend, in my own foolish way,

P.S. And now I sent you a letter for real. I guess I'll see if forgiveness is in the cards, but no matter what, I'm glad of it.